life is only beautiful if it's colorful

2009-09-18T08:44:00.000-07:00

why is it just so tough to say goodbye?

2009-09-16T02:34:00.000-07:00

i've been hung up with alot of army crap and it is taking a huge toll on me. i so miss a few people and i cant wait to meet them

Golden chain

Friendship is a Golden Chain,
The links are friends so dear,
And like a rare and precious jewel
It's treasured more each year...

It's clasped together firmly
With a love that's deep and true,
And it's rich with happy memories
and fond recollections, too...

Time can't destroy its beauty
For, as long as memory lives,
Years can't erase the pleasure
That the joy of friendship gives...

For friendship is a priceless gift
That can't be bought or sold,
But to have an understanding friend
Is worth far more than gold...

And the Golden Chain of Friendship
Is a strong and blessed tie
Binding kindred hearts together
As the years go passing by.

2009-09-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

questions like ' why don't things go my way?' , ' how long more should i wait?' , ' why are these things happening to me constantly?', ' how much more do i have to go through this?'. these questions keeps playing on my mind. Remember the days when we still own those VCR players, you know you can play, forward and rewind it and not knowing when to press the stop button. But only this time imagine the VCR stucked onto your head. Well me being an optimists, looks at the bright side of life. Well, i don't know how long i cant be this way. Well i'll just wait and see what happens next. Good day

2009-09-01T01:33:00.000-07:00

Seen the hand of morning
lift the veil of night.
Seen the eyes of evening
fading slowly out of sight.
Seen shooting stars inflame the midnight blue
but there's nothing in the heavens
quite as beautiful as you.

There's nothing quite as beautiful as you
nothing like your face, like the warmth of your embrace.
A kind and gentle soul whose love runs deep and true
there's nothing quite as beautiful...
as beautiful as you.

Seen the hand of nature
paint the landscape green.
Seen the breath of winter
coat the rivers and the streams.
Seen life beneath a sea of china blue
but there's nothing on this planet
quite as beautiful as you.

There's nothing quite as beautiful as you
nothing like your face, like the warmth of your embrace.
A kind and gentle soul whose love runs deep and true
there's nothing quite as beautiful...
as beautiful as you.

Your being fills my senses
makes my spirit start to climb.
You're a wonder of creation
so rare and so divine

There's nothing quite as beautiful as you.

2009-08-28T08:59:00.000-07:00

the random-est post ever

it's weird. everyday we come upon new sites. new sites made specially to gather friends. whatever the retrospective is, even i don't wanna know.

there's this few thousand sites that offers the same old thing. To make friends, to make NEW friends, to meet new people. Yeah that's the old conservative way.

sites such as multiply, tagged itself, myspace and friendster to name a few have emerged.

it's not that i hold anything against the creators of this things. yeah i mean, probably they are god damn filthy rich due to this contribution. but don't people see the irony in all of it.

people i'd like to reiterate the word people. people as in referring to low lifes son of a bitches who used this sites, yeah, to get to know new people but at the same time this is also their favorite hangout spot. A place where they use to get famous( that's okay i guess) by uploading all their hot perrogative photos.

it's really regretful that their intentions does not stop there. from there they go on to greater things. girls in particular are growing to be more careless. they are more naive and in that sense getting very gullible

i mean i say this: who doesn't like to be complimented, but too much compliments, it's just weird. seriously i dont know what's happening.

seriously i think that site such as tagged and friendster, it's just bad influence and i think its just so over rated.

but to balance that equation. to neutralize the whole formulae, there's this website called FACEBOOK. there's where real friends get together. it for smarter people too ya' know. i'm not being biased but it's just really good. so boys and girls. just stay here and yeah remain as low lifes and try not getting inot facebook because that's a place for smarter people. which in that fact i think you people are stupid and really i think you boys and girls will remain as schmucks forever.

COME BABY HATE ME

2009-07-04T01:47:00.000-07:00

what the next thing you should do, the next thing you should think about or what about the next step you should do?

i've been running these few questions again and again in my mind. Contemplating on what to and all.

it can really be a irritating like having a thorn in the butt..
ughhh..sometimes it creeps me out just thinking about the future.

Well, my service is due in December so that means i'll be out then. then what next?
well the plan is i'm gonna travel first. Korea to see gracie.then maybe start some part time job. then what next? its either Poly, ITE or trying out for the steward job.

well hopefully, by that time i'll get to decide.

2009-06-20T09:30:00.000-07:00

how do like being dejected?
how do you like feeling rejected?
Rejected by someone who you really like.Rejected by someone who'd you think about every hour, every minute,every second.
Rejected by someone you say you live for, someone you'd think when you eat, sleep and someone who often appear in your dreams.Well maybe your nightmares too.Hee

Have you been in love before? Well, it's not just by saying those words. It's more like living those words. Making them come to life. Have you?
Well, i have. I used to love this particular individual before. I still do even to this day. Even when i'm having a relationship with someone. She was the first i cried for. Well, i never shed any after that. i just thought it was useless. It's it makes you feel better but like the people always say ' what's the point of crying for someone who wouldn't cry for'
well she did cry a few times when i wanted to leave her(i never had had thought of leaving her.it was more like a threat) for what she had done .
everytime she did, i gave in. I comforted her. At the end of the day, i had to comfort her. I apologized for the stuffs i never did.
Was it worth it? Well, as a matter of fact, many, i'd say majority would say it's worthless. They'd say i wasted my time when i was with her.
Well for me, it was all worthwhile.
You know, when you see the person you live for, the person you'd die for, everything in the world feels so calm. It slows down. It's as if no one else existed, it was just the two of you.
The greatest feeling in the world.

Well that changed after awhile, she started seeing her ex again. Well of course i got agitated yet i kept quiet and that's when i started bad. Bad as not bad-ass but i was seeing other girls. That's how it all started.
And then she left me. I couldn't do anything.I just started to cry like a wuss. Okay more like a pussy ehh. Yeah like any other idiot who's really broken-hearted, i did that for a few weeks.My morale was so low.

Then it stopped. I tried to get a rebound. I was bad-ass like never before. Everytime i went out with a girl, i'd break her heart. Well that was always my mission. Because of one individual,just one, i became different. I did what she did to me, not to her though instead to the rest.
i didn't know i was so cruel.Selfish.There's this thing about being a man. Their ego is..well..
The greatest male-ego booster is the moment when women fall at their feet,wanting and needing them(men) more than anything else in the world.
Well i achieved that.

Anyways out of all the misery i caused to the rest, at the end of the day i just think about her.I have always done that. and now it goes all back to the same thing,every hour, every minute, every second.

Well at one point of time, i just decided to stop. Really i stopped. i just felt different. i really don't know why. I just thrash away the life i had. Girls, booze, cash,parties,sex.Whatever you name it, BEEN THERE, DONE THAT.

And at the end of the day, is it worth it?i really don't have the answer ehhh.

Well what i want is to get back with the one i live my life for.
I did try. But i guess it was impossible. Well life's like a box of chocolates eh. and things happens for a reason.
i guess you take it slow and take it one thing at a time.

2009-06-11T04:32:00.000-07:00

you and i. we're done. i'm letting you go.

2009-06-06T06:31:00.000-07:00

Well, it has been ages since i last blog. Well... as a matter of fact, i couldn't find the right time.
Okay, truthfully i was caught up with army shit. The routine duties and all. Well, it takes a huge toll on me. So no phone, no internet, no entertainment for two solid weeks. Could you imagine that?
Living without technology. In fact, the first few days was unbearable. Okay more about the duty shit.

Well it's a routine actually for boys who serves the army to do this kind of duty.Well mine was at Jurong Island.
Had to guard the island you know from suicide bombers, terrorists and the list go on..It's really shitty though, ya' know.
Well i couldn't help it though. As the saying goes" A man gotta do what a man gotta do"
i swear it was the most boring two weeks of my life. Guarding the sea and the chemical plants.
Well so much about that , let's talk about my life. It should be a bore.

I'm having this financial problem. Specifically, it's not really a problem well maybe because i'm just fickled. Or rather i just can't set my priorities right. I gotta save up for KOREA (damn i miss Gracie), then the license and the getting bike part( i wanna get a KTM) and the shitloads of handphone bills that i've yet to pay.Plus, there's also the clothes that i wanna get. I mean i don't wanna wear the same clothings day in day out.
Urghh..talking about that contracts my stomach so very badly.
So i need to get a part-time weekend job. maybe being a escort would help greatly but i'm not up for it. Well it's not really me but ya' know the people around me who would actually get affected if i had that status. I just need to get it all right and just stay focused and stop spending and save up more.

i guess that's it. It's easy to converse ya' know but when its comes to transforming words into actions, well that's the real deal which is really uber difficult.
Anyways i just re-watched 'Across the Universe'. it was really AWESOMO-EXTREMO.

now i'm stucked to this song.

Love, love, love.
Love, love, love.
Love, love, love.

There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game.
It's easy.

Nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time.
It's easy.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

Nothing you can know that isn't known.
Nothing you can see that isn't shown.
Nowhere you can be that isn't where you're meant to be.
It's easy.

All you need is love.
All you need is love.
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need.

All you need is love (all together, now!)
All you need is love. (everybody!)
All you need is love, love.
Love is all you need (love is all you need).

Yee-hai!
Oh yeah!
She loves you, yeah yeah yeah.
She loves you, yeah yeah yeah.

2009-05-16T20:50:00.000-07:00

damn. i miss her.come back sweetie. i need you here

2009-05-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

beauty at its perfection

2009-05-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

SMOKING

i ran for like almost 4 hours. potong pasir till botanic, to and fro.plus some chilling and talking with a few friends on the way
any challengers?
well i've got this stupid theology stucked with me in my head eversince the day i lit a cigarettes and inhale the toxins.
well in actual fact most of the people who smoke are much fitter than those non-smokers while they are at their prime.
an excellent example: Me; Ard Rossali
2.4 km run current and yet the best timing: 7 mins 43 seconds
(normal) Standard Obstacle Course(S.O.C) current and yet the best timing: 7 mins 54 seconds
the real question is: Ard,for how long can you sustain that kind of crazy ass timing if you continue smoking?
well if you can beat that.

if you people don't know what S.O.C. is; it consists of a 750 metres rundown to the 1st obstacle which is the low wall and then from the last obstacle which is the low ramp, you have to run another 750 metres to the end. Obstacle courses in ascending order (750m) low wall, parellel bars, one step jump, swinging trainer, low rope, horizontal beam, ...forgot, balancing beam, forgot the name again.... jacobs ladder and finally low ramp then followed by another 750 m run.
well if you think it's that simple, go try it.

so if you wanna compare the Army's and Police's S.O.C., well the police's is much much tougher.
well its just too difficult to screw it up. Well unless you're fat as hell or youre just a failure in life. well we have to carry BIG,HEAVY rifles and they just carry a mere pistol. well i'm not gonna say anything more because in actual fact we do alot of shitloads and we are the Saviour of all human race or we could be the Destroyer
well i think i'm getting out of the topic.
so i think i should stop blabbering nonsense

I need to quit smoking.
ironically,that has been my resolution since 06

2009-05-06T02:30:00.001-07:00

A blessing may be a tragedy in disguise. Alternatively, a tragedy may be a blessing in disguise. Totally dependent on what you may like to believe, dreams come true if you will them to. Still, most of the time believing is seeing, and seeing sometimes causes disbelief. So, why see when you already want to believe and why believe when you do not want to see...

2009-05-05T20:47:00.000-07:00

manchester united vs arsenal

click on the link

arsenal fans,enjoy. barcelona and chelsea fans, watch-out.
and not forgetting the liverfool fans, dream while you can because we are going to ROME babayyyy

2009-05-05T09:28:00.000-07:00

Im sick of pretending its all perfect
Tired of living a lie
Sick of loving you
Tired of the tears I cry

Im sick of giving you my love
Tired of getting nothing in return
Sick of all your other boys
Tired of being unable to learn

Im sick of running back to you
Tired of returning hurt
Sick of been laughed about
Tired of being treated like dirt

Im sick of living this life
Tired of being blue
Sick of thoughts about giving up
Tired of the stupid things I do

Im so sick of it all
So sick Im going do it
So tired of been stuck in the middle
So tired Im going to quit

2009-05-04T23:21:00.000-07:00

just came back from the hospital.
got warded for 3 days.
hell it was sucky to stay in there. food suck. urghhh..
i just estatic i'm back at home and to add to that, i've got a week of medical leave. how great..oh noo..how crazy can that be..
but the bad thing is that.. i'm sick like hell..
oh well...

2009-05-01T23:08:00.001-07:00

how i wished i never asked for this.
well, i'm getting bored with my daily boring-ass routine.

from a high-profile to a non-existent boring-ass life.
i said NO to clubs and drinks and this is what i get.

i think i need to restart my bad-boy image once again.
party, girls, booze. really i think so too. but the problem is i've actually kick that habit out.
why in the hell would i want to pick it up again.? maybe i'm just bored and i think i need to do something.fast...real fast.
boohoo. life's unfair and at that, i'm not enjoying any bit of it

my quotes of the day:
LIFE
unrest of the spirit is a mark of life: one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure

life is a romantic business. it is painting a picture,not doing a sum-but you have to make the romance, and it will come to the question how much fire you have in your belly.

2009-05-01T22:58:00.000-07:00

my krabby patty
everytime i look at her i'll go KRAZIIIEE

2009-04-24T22:08:00.001-07:00

gosh... fancy getting my nose into someone else's business and instead of getting applauds, i got scolded for it.how great can that be? The part of trying to help is not being distinguished at all.
oh boyy. . hatred is really something ay mates.

let's see i'm gonna post about hatred.

theoretically, HATRED comes from the root word HATE.

boohoo. as as you know it stands for prejudiced hostility or animosity

boy . i didn't realise that the hatred for one particular person could actually make the one who's right really really wrong. .

what do i mean by that?

let's add in three characters in this scenario, namely Alex(A), Blair(B) & Clay(C)
A has problem. A hates B. C hates A.

C tells A: i hate you. you disgust me.
A tells C: what did i do to you? (inserts grandmama stories)
the beginning of vulgarities.
B comes into the picture trying to help A.
A scolds B for poking into his business.
Instead of C being the subject of discussion, B became the victim.
and it's all because of the hatred of A towards B.

phewww...life's really unfair. but still it has to go on.
oh i'm going out for brunch.
i'll post again

2009-04-19T00:57:00.000-07:00

recently someone told me about this joke

statistics have shown that people who have a receding hairline at the front are known to be thinkers. They think alot and are always under alot of stress.

surveys and polls have also been conducted to find out about men who are bald in the middle of their head. In actual fact, women find them hard to resist and very sexy

what about when you grow old you have a receding hairline and a bald middle-head?
answer is YOU JUST THINK YOU'RE SEXY

cheers to the person who told me this
and he's none other than my bro-in-law

ahhh anyways i got myself a few rides and two horses.

hey are the pics

2009-04-17T12:04:00.000-07:00

i just got back.
went out with Serynna, Mel, Dut and A-im.
enjoyed from day till night.

getting you on my mind was tough
getting you out was even tougher
i know our time was rough
because it was more of pain than pleasure

i wanted to go to greater heights
so i gave all i've got
but it wasn't in my might
and now i fell short

so before we hurt each other
let's put a stop to it
let's go further and further
and shove it all down the pit

it was great and spectacular
when we were way up high
but now it's all so blur
let us part ways and say goodbye

2009-04-16T22:09:00.000-07:00

okay i just finished this book called Mismatch by Tami Hoag.

it was okay i guess. on the contrary it's quite good i guess. okay believe me i took like only 1 hour of non stop reading to finish the whole book.

okay let see the story's about a girl called Bronwynn.

B, almost got married to Ross Hillard. Before their wedding, she found out he was already having an affair with her cousin, another B which is Belinda.
So during the wedding vows she sounded out to the crowd and taddaa.. ran off to some house that belongs to her dead uncle in Vermont.
there, in the old rundown house she met a guy whom she hated his guts. he was a congressman( people who deals with politics)named Wade.

they started all whimsy, argumentative towards each other and yeah that's when she cries when she was reminded of her fiance.
so as expected that's how it all began.

Wade was a guy who never really thought he had ever fallen in love with anyone until he met Bronwynn.

Wade's whole reason being there was to buy the land on which the house is build which in turn belongs to Bronwynn.

Intially, they had a fairytale beggining. You know the details right.

In between those unmentioned scenarios, there was this part where Ross came to find Bronwynn.
And like you know Wade was there, and he managed to wuss Ross away. And again like how you might think, Ross is a bad guy and he's gonna take some Vengeance.
there was also this part where they met wizzer, B's friend.

Yeah B & W were all sweet. Went on a camping trip. Came back , place was full of reporters.
Bronwynn found out from Wade's assistant that they were planning to buy a ski lodge.
She accused Wade of the things he had wanted to do but didn't do.
Wade couldn't do anything about it.
he was so upset, he returned to Indiana.

Wizzer advice B with regards to her R'ship with Wade.

B realised her mistake and did a make up session with Wade by popping the question.

i think it's a fairytale with a slight twist to it. Overall i think it's quite good. Predictable but the story line is quite coherent.

2009-04-11T22:13:00.000-07:00

oh boy, 17-years old wonder does it again saving Man Utd the second time round.
no doubt, he's a super sub. Making his name rise above the rest, similar to how Ole Gunnar Solkjaer made his.

I'm over the moon. I met this young beautiful girl. She is just beyond words description. Nice, subtle, petite most importantly she's intelligent, quite witty too i must say. I don't know whether she's just a diversion, but she's still nice alright. She makes me feel secured. I mean i'm not saying i'm insecure or what but she just know how to make me feel good by letting me be myself. Like i say, why does life always has to be unfair...

1335
getting ready to go to a wedding.

Ola va Ola spacca

I'm all black today.

2009-04-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

to love and be loved in return

it's weird. life's weird.
how come when you really want something, it always, i'd like to emphasize it again, it always does not go your way.
Does good thing really happen to those who wait, to those who are patient?
Seriously, i do not have a clue . .

Love. What does the noun Love means to you?

Theoretically, the definition of that noun in the dictionary is strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties love for a child (2): attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests love for his old schoolmates b: an assurance of love love (m-w. com)

But seriously what does it mean towards any other individuals?

If you were to do a survey, asking people on the street about the definition, every single answer they'd give would differ from one another but has a slight similarity in it.

In actual fact, there's is no one correct definition for it.

If you ask me that same question,

I'd simply give you this answer " Love is the counterpoint of one another s' Soul.

I once loved(reiterate that) i loved someone so much. She was my queen. Honey, Candy, Ecstasy or whatever you people give names to your loved- ones.It's all the same.
Though it didn't have a good ending it, i learn from it and i treasure the times.

it is better to have love and lost than not to loved at all

Love has power that dispels Death, charm that conquers the enemy.

good night readers

2009-04-09T22:58:00.000-07:00

SHADES, SHADES, SHADES

I'm in LOVE with them

and of course i have ordered for them.
Weeee..

unfortunately packages come in 2 to 4 weeks.

2009-04-07T02:17:00.000-07:00

OASIS CONCERT

Credits : SErynna, Ard& Ghaz Buzz

2009-04-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

i went for Oasis concert. it was AWESOME

Ghaz, Serynna and I sure did enjoy our night.
Eventhough, the night started out really slow, it escalated when we were inside the arena.

We were all dancing and jumping around like monkeys.
However there was this couple. From the moment we arrived , there were moody and all.
Sitting down instead of jumping around like(you're on ecstacy)(insert-face "___")
But damn, the girl was HOT alright.

there's pictures and videos but it's all with that ass....
so as soon i get them, i'd post them here. WEE..

Situation:
I'm not feeling good.
Backaches
Headaches (Migraine)
I've got my chemo coming pretty soon.
If it continues like this, i bet i'll die anytime soon.

Needs:
i could do with a good massage.
SPA-TREATMENT & FOOT REFLEXOLOGY would be EXCELLENT

SHALL WAIT FOR THURSDAY.
and i really need to watch FAST&FURIOUS 4

damn. i can't WAIT

2009-04-04T10:29:00.001-07:00

Did you realize?

did you realize how things are so different now,
did you realize how much we don't talk to each other,
how much we don't relate to each other anymore.

did you realize how much things have changed,
changed from the moment i met you,
changed from the moment we hit our pit-stop

did you realize that i didn't enjoy being someone I'm not.

did you realize that we are going further away from each other.
from the moment it was not set,
my heart began to ponder,
waiting for the heartache to stop

but as time goes by i know that was it,
things are never meant to be

as time flies by,
I'm sure one of us will say goodbye.

Did you realize that i realized?

2009-04-03T23:05:00.000-07:00

REMINISCE

i just couldn't keep myself from laughing after looking at this few pictures
no wonder i got the gay boy status back then.

damn, i miss those times.
looking at the present, it makes me feel nausea.
so boys and girls, start reminiscing,
look back into the golden old days,
Re-live the memories.

Life as it is

2009-04-03T05:25:00.000-07:00

life as it is

life is just like a Roller-coaster
life is full of obstacles
life is full with ups and downs,
someday it may be good, someday it may be bad
it is like the waves, it has its high and low tides
but that is life

Everytime you fall, you stumble upon a rock,
you pick yourself up, because it will only make you stronger

the challenge is not to stand up on your own
but it is to keep standing even when you're worn out
and when you know that it's literally impossible to do so.

One day at a time--It is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering

2009-04-03T03:05:00.000-07:00

I made myself a promise,
A very long time ago,
And these are just a few things,
That I would like you to know

I made myself a promise,
To find an indescribable girl to me,
Where I love so many things about her,
Things the world cant seem to see

I made myself a promise,
For us to spend time together,
I want a love that won't die,
I want the kind that lasts forever

I made myself a promise,
To show her love even when I'm mad,
And to show her a love so strong,
The strongest she's ever had

I made myself a promise,
To always make her see,
Cause I don't want her to question,
How special she is to me

I made myself a promise,
To leave her little notes to show I care,
And I will hold her as much as I can,
Which will make her fully aware

I made myself a promise,
To make her feel as loved as could be,
And I know
I will keep these promises
Cause she's the girl for me